I miss my stepson and stepdaughter so very, very much it Just. Tears. Me. Apart!
Seven months. No Contact. No response.
Which began - inexplicably - right after our usual-big-hug-I-love-you, I-love-you-too-see-you-soon goodbye in midwest city as I was leaving after my three hour see-new-granddaughter trip/visit.
Since that day, nothing. Except stepddaughter's "Gardener, Stop contacting me." email response to my New Year's Eve note/wish to all of them.
WTF did X - could X - have told them after I left that would make them do that? Just like that. After seventeen loving years?
This was a large part of this week's IC session. It's only right that I feel this way. They are in pain, too. I'll never know why. Never. But they'll be back someday, etc., etc.
My mind knows this. But the heart - as always - lags. And today it overwhems me.
And it'll be over, soon, and I'll be okay I know...
But f%^K. Just f%^k.
Last edited by Gardener; 06/05/1001:48 PM.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac
