My biggest fear right now is that I'm going to figure out that I love him, BUT I don't want to do this anymore.
There is a BUT in there girl.
And it means...
Your focused on the outcome?
Originally Posted By: shelbel
I don't think so--I'm trying to focus on my reaction to any possible development.
Is this another way of saying that you're "what if-ing" the sh!t out of things?
(Yes I'm giving you a hard time.) Just be careful with all the what if's and assumptions we tend to make when it comes to them. It can and will affect your interactions with him.
There will come a time when it will all be automatic. You'll just know you, without any questions or doubts.
Be patient and keep your focus on you.
A few posts back you mentioned getting worked up when the thought of dealing with him comes to mind. Something about your hands shaking.
Tackle this. Work on relaxing and taking the pressure off of yourself. What are you so afraid of if anything? What is it that you dread so much? Why all of the pressure? I think you'll find that much of what you fear has already happened.
I Think you're doing a great job and you're moving along well. Continue to make this about you.
