Need a Plan for My Marriage

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IDU,

Thank you for the motivation. It did get me going to do the best I could do. I believe that I did a really good job of selling myself without sounding desperate in anyway.

I have a really good chance to land this job, and the recruiter thinks so too. He is in my corner. I think you are right that it will help me to deal with a lot of the stress that I have going on right now. It will give a boost of confidence too. It is my last day tomorrow with the census, so I need some more money too.

I will be meeting with my attorney either Monday or Tuesday of next week, so that will help too.

I hope to have a job soon, and I am so excited about that.

I am distressed to find out that my W is sleeping with another guy too. OM #2 is in the picture. It is becoming so disgusting to me. I just do not get. I think there may be other guyes too. I won't say how I know. Tonight was her first night with OM #2, and I am sick to my stomach. What happened to the beautiful, sweet W I met and fell in love with, and still love.

It just makes me ache all over. I am sick inside.

I try to be my best for my kids, and but I don't know how much more I can handle of this. She still treats me like sh!t. It is very depressing to me. I have to be strong and quiet, but I just want to tell how much she makes me want to puke at what she is doing, and how she thinks she is best for the kids. I am the only constant in their lives. I am here for them every second of everyday.

I do not know what more to say.