BobbiJo, I admire your honesty with yourself and that is half the battle. When does the point come where you say "enough"? When do you say "BobbiJo deserves more than this"? I truly understand your thoughts as I stayed with my wife for years trying to make it work, win her back and I failed. Divorce is a horrible thing and the fact that you hate it as much as you do says what an amazing person you really are. Letting go is a process and often a long one, give it time. Let go a little at a time. One less phone call, one less text...you get the picture. You'll let go when you realize it's what really must be done. Now, I also think you're still not well physically and I know myself that takes a toll on my emotional well being as well. Get some rest and heal, physically and emotionally, it was a tough night for you. Pray for guidance, His love is always there, we just need to plug into it. Btw, there's a great Christian book out there called "Healing is a Choice" by Stephen Arterburn...yah, I know, one more book! (You can get it at Bookcloseouts.com for $3.75 plus shipping)
