The countdown continues

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a slightly tough day. D17's car quit for good.
She was in the middle of an intersection at rush hour when it quit. She told me her first thought was to call me. Fortunately I was nearby, and helped her get the car out of traffic.

After it cooled off a little, I was able to drive it to the nearest car shop, and we walked back to my car and drove home. When the shop called, they gave me the bad news that it was going to cost much more than the car is worth. I expected as much.

I texted W and told her the situation, and told her we were gonna have to get another car for D17. She is out of town visiting OM. Her first response was that she was about to have dinner (with om of course), and that she thought we should spend as little as possible. She said she thought about $2000 at most.

Just more difficulty, and a part of divorce. I will buy the most affordable car I can find, that is SAFE for D17. I don't want her breaking down somewhere. I'm sure I sound a little self-righteous here, but I'm pretty frustrated.

I had emailed my specific concerns about W scheduling activities for the kids yesterday, and never got a response. Since the dead car leaves D17 without transportation to and from her babysitting job that W forced on her, I mentioned again via text that she could not schedule the kids without talking to me about it, and that she should NOT be going through the kids at all.

Again, no response. And I shouldn't expect one.

It's all very unreal to me, this kind of communication with my wife. Today I continued my clean up of the house and in one of the kitchen drawers I found a stack of cards and notes that I had sent W over the past six years, going back to when we moved to this house. The one on top was from the flowers I sent her on our anniversary, about 8 weeks before she dropped the bomb. I called her my life's love and best friend. I remember writing the words and feeling them, but it's a cold memory now.

I'm coming to terms with the idea that I may never understand what has happened and how my wife has transformed into someone I don't know at all.