It HURTS so bad, desperately need re assurance

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But as odd as it may seem, and Im NOT even saying I believe it myself fully , but there IS the possibility that it really IS a platonic thing. She's ALWAYS had more guy friends then girls. And I mean that sincerely, I know its outside the "norm" but there is something to it. She never liked the catty gossipy types of reltionships popular amongst many female/female relationships , even ones that are friendly.

SOTR ~ even Lesbians don't have more guy friends than girls. Lift your head out of the sand, my friend. All the women I have ever known who have more guy friends than girls are ... FLIRTS (at least).

I've already made peace in my mind with the idea that they MAY already have, or MAY at some point in the future " do it" but again , I cant do squat about it. I learned from DR that the affair is NOT the problem but a symptom. I can live with that. We have almost 14 years of history together, they have ONE bad one.

But how on God's green earth are you making PEACE with it??

Like I said, it sounded and felt sincere when she blurted out that she doesn't have everything she wants, cause she doesn't have ME. This was confirmed as sounding very genuine by our neighbor counselor.

And the Oscar goes to.... Plenty of people have SAID things that make others FEEL a certain way.

I know what Im saying sounds foolish, I really do

And yet you persist.

. But this is not a "normal" person , that does or thinks things in the more common and predictable ways of this type of situation.

She's unique ~~~ just like everyone else.

I have to go with the observations of a trained third party

Who is saying EXACTLY what you want to believe, even though, as you YOURSELF admit, is so hard to reconcile.
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