BD and NM, I really miss my H's companionship too !
There are some positives though about being alone: you don't have to argue over things and can make decisions on your own. And no-one grumbling beside you during an IKEA visit! (OK, so that was my attempt at positiveness!) BD, good you are reading Detachment again. You know, I didn't start to 'get it' until recently. It wasn't intellectual of course - because you can understand the logic of it straight away- but in my bones that I understood it. Away with pain! Away with trying to 'fix' this. The trick is trying to love them at the same time as detaching.... not sure I've got that going as much as I'd like.
Hey, and remember the story you shared with us...the older woman who was separated 3 yrs or something from her WH. Try to be like you imagine she was during that time. Tip the emtional balance away from blaming WH, to pitying him or something and seeing that he's not mature and needs this time to grow..and you too.
And be angry when you have to as well, and cry, but just don't get stuck there.... xx