Being cut out is what hurts, not the concept of D.
Yes, I can appreciate that it must hurt terribly. I feel for you and my heart goes out to you for it. I know, though, that you can handle it. You can rise above this. You're not suppressing what you're feeling, and in doing so, you will be able to move past it. You cannot work through that which you cannot acknowledge. I know it's a long road. Remember those baby steps.
On another note, I meant to mention that liked something dday had said above... he said you had a life before her - I think that deserves some thought. What does AC want from his life, outside of a R? What types of things does he enjoy doing for fun?
I cannot complain for not receiving from others, that which I've never asked them for.
