Not only am I still learning so much of this stuff, I'm trying to interpret whats going on with her and her reactions and statements at the same time. And since I'm walking through a minefield while juggling nitroglycerin, I need as much feedback as possible while I'm trying to develop these new skills.
I did also learn today that I inadvertently made ANOTHER mistake a few weeks ago. When she had originally said I had " 4 weeks to prove myself " Well one of her big complaints was that I wasn't spending enough time with her and the kids. So I figured ok, Ill make sure I DO make an obvious effort to spend time with ALL of us in the living room together, while NOT talking about US stuff.
Well today I learned that she interpreted that as me being "pushy" which of course is bewildering, since I thought I was actively showing that I was changing the things she was upset about.
I KNOW its WAY to early for ME to even be thinking about OW , but I did have an interesting and somewhat flirtatious encounter with a single mom in one of my classes the other day. I wonder when or if the time would be right to drop that I was doing some unspecified thing with someone from class ?
I dont want to let on about it to soon , but I dont want to wait to long and not have it have the desired effect.
I DONT want to "use" this person, she's actually pretty attractive and in the short conversation we had, we do have some things in common ( tattoo's). And I do have to say it was nice to get some polite and positive attention from the opposite sex.
But I have NO interest in considering an R with ANYONE other then my WAW. But if the WAW gets wind that Im out doing something with a member of the opposite sex there are really only two possible outcomes I see. Either it drives her towards me OR it drives her straight into the arms of her EX, either out of anger or a feeling of " oh good, he's ok and has someone else now "
The payoff is huge, but the risk feels just as big.
