No longer "stuck808". Now my name is Bond. "MrBond

[MrBond]

Coach,

Thanks for that. 007 would cut his losses and move on.

Believe me I had thought about that many a time. I do know that much of her depression came up after our second D was born. She had the same thing after our first, but not to this extent. I've mentioned it to her before but she didn't want to get it checked out.

I talked to her physician and my C about her and they said that if it is depression, she will not find anything attractive. In fact, the OM was like a shot of adrenaline that made her "feel" something that wasn't negative. I think sandi explained to me what happened with her and it's similar. It's like she's just numb.

According to them, she could be married to George Clooney and she wouldn't feel "attracted" to him.

So do I see things improving in our sitch? Most definitely. After I re-read my post it did sound like a downer, but I can honestly say that things are 100% better than they were even 3 months ago. She had started to do more things for me and is interacting more with me.

Do I think she's cake-eating? No. Even when she's with our D's alone, they have told me that "mom is sad" all the time. Her skin's been breaking out, her sleep patterns are erratic and she doesn't eat like she used to. She also just doesn't smile like she used to from what I hear from others. She doesn't go out or have any close friends. So I know it's not me.

In fact, lately, I've been getting more positive interactions with her. After 2 years of all negatives, the positives have been sticking out like crazy. And I do see that they are building and increasing as time goes by.

I don't know if her hormones are finally stabilizing or whatever, but all I know is that I've seen glimpses of the woman I married coming out of the fog. I haven't really taken any "baby steps" she has. So I decided I'd stick it out for a little while longer and see what happens.