I had a question about your sitch though. When you were out doing your thing, did you ever think about what you had done to Coach and your family? At what point did you actually show remorse for what had happened?
I know it may not apply to my sitch, but I'm just curious.
Yes, I did think about it. I thought of our children - what our D would mean to them. And, yes I did think of what Coach was going through. I was taking care of myself, though, and believed it was essential to get away from the situation as it was then.
Coach and I talk about this from time to time - are we sorry we separated? More precisely: do I wish I hadn't left? The thing is, had I not shaken things up, we're not sure anything would have changed for us. So it's hard to say "I'm sorry I left you" when both of us agree it made a big difference to our relationship and marriage. However, let me be clear - I hate that he suffered. I hate that our children felt insecurities and uncertainties about our family. I expressed this part of my regret to him and our children sometime after I moved back home. They have forgiven me.
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Me45 H46 T25 M22 S21 & 19 D13 Separated and filed 8/08 Moved home 11/08