Husband left me 3 months pregnant...

[newmama]

BD I won't lie- it was very hard being pregnant without being able to share the excitement with WH. SInce he was infatuated with OW throughout our pregnancy, he wasn't "there" or enthused with me about our baby. I felt so alone and confused and very jealous of the other pregnant women who talked about how ecstatic their Hs were and how they celebrated as a family. Even when I found out that WH was having an A, I wasn't confused but was still lonely. ANd I spent the whole pregnancy wondering what was wrong with my WH and then when I found out it was an A I spent the remainder wondering if he was coming back.

During this first year it has been me getting excited by myself and it feels "hollow." I am soaking up S' little acts so I can tell him great stories about when he was a baby and what he would do. I hope as he gets older I will still get to know him 3.5 days each week. Luckily, since I am a teacher, I will get to watch him during the vacations instead of daycare!

I am going to go on a husband hunt starting this fall if WH wants to divorce me. I figure I can find a good guy within a year and then be married by 2015! I will wait longer than a year this time! lol!