I came close today, to sending a long, whiny email to the SG telling him how heartbroken I was, and how betrayed I felt.

And then I got up from my desk, and when I came back, I realized that was absolutely the worst thing I could do.

Besides, it would have been a lie really. I am not that heartbroken. Sure I hurt and feel like the biggest flippin' idiot on the face of the earth right now, but why drag it out?

I'm going to give him his car back. I have my brother's, and so I am going to tell him that I don't want it. That way I don't have to worry whether or not he will sign it over to me when it is paid off. I can just give it back to him, and he can do what he wants with it.

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..