Yeah, somehow my W agreed to kiss me when she goes out or sometimes when she goes to bed. At first she thought I wanted more than a kiss. I explained how we needed to start somewhere and a kiss was a deal breaker meaning I could leave and not miss her at all. That's when the kisses started.
My W knows I want to leave and questions why I'm still living at home. She also knows how pratical I am and won't leave until I can make it on my own. I have family I can move in with but I don't want to make their lives uncomfortable.
Well I usually write about bad stuff, but lately work has been keeping me busy to write anything.
Since the big blow out I had with her and telling how much I want to leave things have changed a little. After that we got into a small argument when I lost my debit card. Here's where I tell you something crazy about me. I don't like to loose anything. If I do I have to search until I find it or I've checked every nook and cranny a dozen times. I asked W to check her purse for my debit card. She refused and yelled at me. She said you don't trust me and I've never been given the debit card. I do trust her and it's true I took away the debit card from her b/c of her MLC. Believe me it was a good thing I took it away. She still managed to rack up over $5000 in debt. Back to our fight. I told her again I trust her and she still wouldn't check her purse. I told her I was nuts and I know it's not there please check the purse. She yelled louder and I remained calm but still thinking where did I put that damn debit card. After the fight she tried her usual tricks, sleeping on the couch, silent treatment, and of course no kisses.
After a few days I told her how it was. She already knows I have a problem about loosing things. I told her if she just checked her purse once I would have been greatful. I asked if she thought I would do something for her even though it didn't make sense. After a minutes of silence she said yeah, you would. So where is the good part.
We talked for a little bit and she said she would come to bed wearing something more comfortable. I told her doing this will shows she trust me. Last night she went to bed wearing something comfortable. No sweat shirt or sweat pants. For once it didn't seem like she was dressing for a blizzard. It's a small exageraton but you get the idea.
This morning I asked if she was comfortable. She said yes and when I asked if she would dress comfortably again tonight she said yes. The positive in this one if you're keeping score is finally she's beginning to trust me again. I don't know how I lost it but her MLC prevented her from doing something I pride myself on. Being able to be trusted.
