not making money, office overseas is slowly dwindling.. people he was doing business with him have jerked him and are now sending him HATE emails that he's forwarded to me. between that and the jerk who sent me an email about the OW, he must be feeling horrible. Plus, some of these guys have reached out to my MIL (who was overseas with H for 6 weeks), so he is reeling from this. He is being swallowed whole
I will not allow him to put the blame for his actions on me. I understand the role I played. I understand and can woman up to what I contributed, BUT regardless, i was not the one who strayed. HE DID.
Plus, he is getting heat from everyone about our situation. They think he is flat out wrong and that he has lost his mind.
I just want to snap out of it. I wish I'd bump into someone who could take my mind off of him.. not in a sexually way but because I just feel like I need a distraction.. I know I have 3 kids but they remind me of their father. it's sometimes torture because of it. I have problems facing them sometimes.. even though I just do anyway.
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
