I went on a walk, teared up a little bit, am back, and put on my yoga music. Same yoga music that got me through Jan/Feb, incidentally! It is helpful.
Dog Whisperer after.
Just to say what I realized on the walk-- I really do feel like he just turned the knife in my back again. I hope he realizes I saw the picture and apologizes. It would have been perfectly normal to mention she was coming when he was here on Sunday. I suppose it's possible she called on Monday morning and that's when they hung out, but it's very unlikely.
I'm glad this happened. I was getting too comfortable with him. If he would have told me on Sunday, I would not have been this upset. At all. We both always laughed at her. Because she was so desperate for him.
But he didn't say anything. He should feel very very guilty. He is making me lose sleep tonight. Thanks for being helpful, bud! The carseat is installed, but I'm having to go through all of my strategies to calm myself down and return to a better place.
