Not sure which way to go anymore

[Mystik]

Today was a rough day. Just felt overwhelmed and that my emotions were stretched to the breaking point, like one more thing happening would send me over the edge. It feels like my life has spiraled out of my control and every time I reach out to try and grab that control back it keeps eluding me. I feel apathy towards so much. I feel like everyone has all these really high expectations of me which I'll never reach so why should I bother trying, you know? Was about ready to crawl under my desk and have a breakdown at work today but I fought it back and made it through the day.