No longer "stuck808". Now my name is Bond. "MrBond

[MrBond]

So last night, when I called my Ds, I ended up getting into a R with my W.

The biggest thing that bugged the heck out of me was the fact that I didn't get an apology from her for anything (A, bad treatment, etc.). I know I'm supposed to let it go, but I figured, what the heck, I'll tell her what I need (from DB) and see what happens.

So I told her that I needed an apology from her. Not as a way to place blame, but as a way to start the healing and re-establish trust between us. I said the apology was something I needed to hear from her so I could start feeling more comfortable around her especially since she was hanging around so much. She said she "understood". Whatever that means.

Well I was glad I got it off my chest. Is she going to do it? Who knows. But I felt I needed to tell her in order for me to continue healing and trusting her again. I also have seen her old self coming out but she still has times where its almost like she had forgotten how to interact/treat me.

I told her again though that I forgave her for what she had done and I needed that for the trust issues.

This weekend is my time with our Ds. so I'm thinking of inviting her along to spend the time with us since the interactions have been very positive. We'll see.