I'm weak. I called H today and screamed at him, yelled, cried that he hurt me so deeply. Told him how much I hated him and never want to look at him. He said he didn't pick up the papers yet. Said I told him we are going to start acting like a divorced couple, and I should mail him the papers. So I am going to drive them over to his house and hand deliver them.
I'm 6 weeks away from my due date... And I've never felt so alone and empty and scared. H just kept saying, you'll be happy someday. Someday someone will love you and blah blah blah. So I said I'm not you. I asked if he'd rather date other people and he said eventually yes.
I'm so sad. Its trange bc I don't want to love him, but can't stop. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to stop what I am doing.
