Geronimo, you are doing fine. It's all a matter of time. That sucks because you can't wave a magic wand and have it be two years later. But as time goes on the pain goes away.
Back to a few posts ago. What if you called her and she just came home -- without making any changes. Do you really want that?
I've thought about my STBXW. What if she called and said it's too hard to handle the kids and finances alone and please come home.
That'd be hard to turn down -- but it would be hard to go back to. The sweet, caring person who looked to me as the center of her world ceased to exist a long time ago. Depression and anger over her lot in life took over and unless I was convinced she was getting help then it'd just be delaying the inevitable.
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