New day and I am laughing as I read my posts from last night... so annoyed I was over nothing! I got up early today (and went to bed way too late!) and cleaned my kitchen, took the dog for a long walk, paid bills and went to yoga. Now I am ready to work for the day and have dinner with my sister and my neighbor tonight. Today's mantra... NO MORE BS!
I am sure my H was just feeling nostalgic last night. It happens. I have experienced it myself but don't contact him when I am feeling that way.
My H has apologized to me in an indirect way but it is always followed by something (a but, excuse or something else). He has told me he never meant to hurt me (okay but you did hurt me!) and he once told me he only can see things through his bubble and he is just not ready to see anything more. He also told me recently that it has been over two years and I should be over it and not hurt anymore. LOL!
I posted this before but in Jan. 2009 he saw a "counselor" three times for guilt. She told him if you just say you are sorry but explain your side of it (IOW: it is okay to justify) then the guilt will go away and it falls on the other person. Nuts, right?
I will always have some sort of feeling for my H. I am not sure I can articulate the feelings but we were married for 10 years, together for 13 years and that equates to 1/3 of our lives.
Last Nov. my H told me he would do whatever he had to do to earn my trust and respect back then I never heard from him again. So, I don't put any stock in his words as his actions never seem to match what he says.
