I know. I just feel so responsible for everything in our marriage. From him having the affair, to the bills, the kids..everything. I am very hard on myself. I want to have a happy marriage. I want to trust him but he needs to do things to make me feel secure. I know you need to love yourself before you can love anyone else but by turning to her that was huge in my book. He did and said a lot of things that I have not yet forgiven. I was hurt very badly. I dont know how you put this all past you. I do want to thank all of you in advance for your help! I am just ready to move on..and stop all of this. I need to breathe...
