I think he is slowly breaking down.. I wish he would just hit rock bottom already...I know that sounds harsh, but I just hate watching him shift blame on everyone else, rather than take responsiblities for his own actions.
Lately I've been wondering what it would be like to meet someone else...To have a distraction.. to get that kind of attention that I've been craving so much lately. I just feel like I'm rotting away. But I do feel strong and I do have alot in me. I won't allow myself to be his punching bag. I need to show him tough love and I need to respect myself. I realize that I need to show my children the differences in fighting for what you believe in and doing it all the while maintaining your self respect.
xoxo to everyone!
M: 32 H: 34 S:5 D: 3 D: 1 Together 11 years Married 7 Bomb: PA/EA 8/13/09 (for 1 year on and off) ILYBINILWY: 08/09
"The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." -Laura Munson
