Today I am feeling really insecure about him meeting her...is it ok to send him an email or is that badgering..should I just leave it alone and if it happens it happens...we are in the he should have 0 contact stage right now.
You know the answer to this. If he agreed with you that he will not have contact with OW, and he does it anyway, you apply the consequence to his action.
Swimming, you have to cut your nonsense out. Sorry to be blunt, but my God woman! Your H is a first class CAKE EATER and you KNOW it...and all you ever say about it is "I've had enough." But there is no proof that you have actually had enough b/c even after you say that, when your H decides to dole out another dose of his cr@p behavior, you make room in your life for it. You have to say to him what you mean, and really mean what you say.
You are not demonstrating self respect. There is no reason to expect him to respect you if you won't even do that much.
Greek
Time for the BGPs.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
