First off cut yourself a little slack. This crap is hard. and yes...
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God I hate this.
We all do.
I agree with the others that you used the sitch with the kids to allow you insecurities to show. Maybe you did subconciously maybe not. Either way, what is done is done.
Your probably beating the shiznit out of yourself right now. Dont. Learn for it.
Why do you feel insecure. This is the question that ONLY YOU can answer. The answer is somewhere in you.
In terms of how do you detach? Slowly...in time...with mistakes...
YOu will feel like you have detached and then all of a sudden you will slip and fall back into the old patterns. You know what thought...YOu realize this which is a very good thing. You may not see it now and you probably dont feel it now...but you are growing..
Deal with the insecurity...as hard as it is stop thinking about OW.
You said that you are GAL'ing, you have said that you enjoy time with H. Enjoy what you have right now. Take the GAL activity to another level one that will really make YOU feel good. Once you feel good you may not feel as insecure.
You can do this.
God Bless, Eric
"The difficulties of Life are intended to make us BETTER,not bitter". "Fear is a prison, where you are the jailer. FREE YOURSELF!" "Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B." - Jack3Beans
