I am concentrating on changing up my behaviour--and the fact that he is so awful I guess I just expect. He doesn't know how to react and he wants to react in his "old patterns". He has to learn new ones and this will take TIME. I don't know even if he CAN learn anything new. But I have, I can, and I am!lol.

So then on Sunday Marina's "mom" (I use that term loosely for a woman that throws out her adopted daughter and wishes she could send her back!) comes by--OMG--she is a nutcase. She is crying hysterically about how the guys (gay) at the end of the street won't let her see her daughter. (utter bulls$%t) She is going on and on how I just "don't understand", how troubled her daughter is (Marina is a delight) and how she has been attacked by her and she's had to Baker Act her, blah, blah, blah.

She is a sick, sick person. She baited and baited that kid and TRIED to have her put away so she wouldn't look like a bad person. My friend told me ages ago that she couldn't believe this woman was adopting kids--she hates kids. She just wanted little robot slaves--she has a house full of animals (a hoarder, really) and has fibromyalgia or something and she can NOT take care of all that on her own.

Throuugh it all, do you know that Marina says that her life here was much better than the orphanage in Russia? Wow.

She knew that Marina had a "boyfriend" (she had 2 dates--her first ever) and I was a bit freaked out by that--how did she know that??

So I called Marina who completely freaked out about how she came over here and how she knew things. She goes over to the house to "talk" to her mother and her mother ketp her for like 4 hours, trying to tell her that what she did was Ok, that she has no friends now in the neighborhood because of Marina, how I "used" to be her friend??? Wha....??? NEVER.

How MEAN I was to her when I was talking to her (?? again?? what part of me listening to you rant is mean??) How my H came out and was mean? (He came out and validated her--you look really upset, this must be very upsetting to you, this must be hard--I was like ? and how do you know how to validate H??lol)

Oh boy, I tell ya what, between school and this neighborhood fiasco, I don't have time to dwell on or mindread my H.lol. Which, mindreading is control--you know I never really knew that but it lets me off the hook--I used to be a huge "mindreader".

Gotta run off to the Learning Center--they are closed Fri, Sat, and Sun during the summer! And i have so much work to do!!