Need a Plan for My Marriage

[LSG]

IDU,

I am so sick and tired of being worried about what is going to happen. It will happen if it happens. I am tired of her and what she is doing. I am going to do my best keep positive and do what is best for me and my kids.

I have been polite to her, and I even covered her with a blanket because I would do this for anyone. I did it because I want to continue to be a person that I am happy with still. I felt good, and I did not feel any anonymosity about anything tonight.

The kids both wanted to sit next to me on the sofa tonight, not her which never happens. It felt nice, and they seemed happy to be with me.

After I took the kids out playing in front of the apartment with some friends, we came inside. Right after that she opens the door. I wonder where she was or if she was watching us with the OM. I know I should not wonder about this, but it was too coincidental. Strange actually.

I am doing better tonight, but I could be back to feeling down again, and I so much do not want that to happen. I have keep strong for myself and the kids.

Thanks for being here to support me.