i did something to cure my frustration. i joined a new squash club. i can go 7 days a week now. i don't have to think about filling my time with stuff. it's been filled. i played tonight. i had so much fun. it took my mind off of everything. i played hard. met new people. and yes, i smiled.
it really does straighten out my mind. better than yoga. yes, it's late. but when you're tired out from squash, it might even help me fall asleep.