Yes I did admit in my original post because I want all posters to know the whole sitch that I told him a few times, "I'm not sure if I'm in love with you" and "I'll help you as a friend" etc...
As I am currently in therapy, in MC and seeing a priest, I have discovered I said this to emotionally detach myself a bit because I was terrified he was going to die. I was terrified of losing him. I am not saying I was right. I have expressed this to him right before he went up there to recover and in my 9 page letter which I know is a no no a week after the bomb.
M:27 H: 33 M:10/07 T:9 yrs H moves away for drug recovery: 3/2010 ILYBINILWY & wants D:5/02/10 Confirmed OW:5/21 Told MIL:5/25(only concerned about H's recovery) Told FIL:5/28(will speak to him)
