Piano, it was the first I heard him say he regretted leaving. I didn't ask about MC or SP because I know his answer will be no. I'm not understanding his behavior. My family thinks he is just simply immature and don't know what to make of him. His sister emailed me over the weekend to say she is sorry for the way he's acting, and she is angry bc he doesn't see what he is losing, and when he does it may be too late.
I don't know the legalities of coparenting/custody but honestly not sure I want to go there. We, especially He, decided long ago he didn't want the baby to have a schedule, or swapped against his best interest just because the calendar says so. I will cross that bridge if need be and when I get to it. I know that nothing can legally be done until the baby is born anyways. I hope it doesn't get to that point. Honestly that is why I was trying to stay amicable.
I'm afraid I truly lost all faith. I am not sure there is anything to fight for. I actually am going throughout the day and not wondering what could make him come back. No longer praying for him to realize he still has love for me, or wishing he'd see the light. Kind of strange. It truly consumed my life even w/o knowing it. This baby is not a reason H should come back. H says he was so in love w/ me and that alone or missing me could be the only thing to make him come back.
If I were in his shoes and had someone say to me, I'd start all over w you. We can go to MC just to "try" (no guarantees) and see if it is even possible that you and I could work. I would totally jump on it! Why not!!! He has nothing to lose. I don't understand why he wouldn't at least want to say he tried... To someday tell his son he tried. Right now I'm afraid its all too late. I told H over the past few conversations how couples can rediscover love and how there are so many methods of MC and therapy to help couples like us. I told him instead of filing for D he shouldve spent time talking to MC and IC like I did to understad why this all happened.
