Snarky...I like that! In all seriousness, 'kicking my husband to the curb,' which is exactly what I know he deserves, isn't as easy as it sounds. We have four young children together, whose feelings must be considered. I'm not worried about me; I know that despite the pain, which is severe, I will be okay. I have a great supportive family, friends and unwavering faith that the Lord has great plans for me to prosper. But I do worry about my kids, whose lives were practically perfect and certainly ideal before my husband filed for divorce in March. They continue to walk on eggshells when they sense the moments are tense. I know my two oldest are waiting for the "other shoe to drop" much like I have been. I have to handle myself with integrity and class at every turn, because I have 4 sets of little eyes looking to me. And they need to know that their mother did everything in her power, and reached far beyond what she thought she could, to save the marriage. Like all of you either are or have been, I'm prayerful and hopeful my husband will eventually wake and realize what horrible mistakes he has made. He has awoken times before, and he has been guilt-ridden, no matter that I'm pretty good at keeping my mouth shut about what a real jerk he has been. But he is an addict to this affair; it gives him a thrill to text and email with this woman. And while I understand I'm a wee biased, this woman is not attractive, she has a reputation for being a very mean person and is not a "good" mother. I've had to realize that isn't about looks or being a "better" person, but rather they each found someone who is willing to stoop as low as they have and continue to do.
