I know you're having a rough go of it here lately. Allow yourself to be sad and frustrated for a while.
Then, go back to the strong lady that you are. It's so hard to stay strong for so long, but I think you are one who can do it.
Just re-read the line in your signature: "The end of suffering happens with the end of wanting." i.e. the person who needs the R less is the one who is in control of it. Show him you are in control. Don't hang on his every word. Occasionally, turn him down when he asks you to do something.
Hang in there, you still have some game left in you!
