I DEFINITELY have hope for your specific sitch. The timeframe is the fuzzy part. On the one hand, you've put in a lot of time and you might be very close. On the other hand, it might be a lot longer.

So you have the power to decide what you want. It can be liberating but incredibly frustrating because you don't know if you are choosing the 'right one'. So follow your heart. Slowly. smile

Also, I understand the guilt about S, but things just happen the way they do. I tend to think that S arrived at the time he did for a reason. Of course, I'm that eternal optimistic fatalist. I personally believe my little girl survived all kinds of odds to be here. So it must have been fated.


me, 30
WH, 29
D born June 2010
M: July 2001
Bomb/S: 1/14/10
Done with it all.