still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

ok so now I have been reflecting on all of these things

1) I need to figure out how to forgive WH. I don't want to carry this heavy feeling around and this resentment and bitterness.Even if we divorce I WANT to find a way to forgive him.

2)I made so many mistakes in my marriage. Sure I know plenty of others do and their spouses don't cheat or walk away. But mine did. It will help me to make peace with the divorce if I can remember my part in hurting our marriage.

3)I do make plans and do stuff but when I am at home I am on this DB forum too much! Need to limit my time here.

4)I am tired of being the only one with hope left for my sitch...well my SIL might but she isn't being emphatic about it. I don't even know if people here on DB forum have hope! It is really hard to have hope alone.