Running out of time.

[Cie la vie]

especially when I think about the kids being raised in this manner

I feel terrible for kids and it eats at me. Innocent victims of selfishness.

The OM hanging out with the kids still really gets to me as well. I am not sure if this will ever completely go away.

This will be the next gift my XW has for me and the kids, I expect it has already happened but she hasn't made it official.

She wants to be buddies and I want nothing to do with it.

Crazy they would think that it would be even possible after the crap they have done. I can't understand what is going on my XW head to think I would want anything to do with her at this point.

I know the answer to this questions is in previous posts but how often do you have contact with your XW? Monday was the first time I had seen my X in over a month and I can't remember the last time I spoke to her on the phone. All kid handoffs to this point had been handle through nannies.

Thanks for the list of coping strategies they all make good sense. I actually had my first drinks in over 8 months this weekend. Beer and wine, neither tasted particularly good however. I guess it is an acquired taste and one I lost.

I need to get back on track with my Galing etc. I felt strongest when I was in full exercise mode. I have no excuse.

Looking forward to my vacation with the kids starting Saturday. Heading to NorCal to my mothers for a week. It's going to be a challenge but I need to get in sync for these kinds of adventures as I intend to give my kids all the things I had hoped to do as a family anyway.