i would no longer be the victim. i would stand up for myself. it would make up for not having spoken up during the marriage. setting boundaries and speaking up would have ended the marriage anyway. what do i have to lose now by tearing him a new one? i've already lost my m. he hates me because he thinks i'm a gold digger. what more can i lose? nothing.
i can see myself going off on him in the mediation session. and at that point, not even my L can stop me from shooting my mouth off.
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You are confused because you lack vision. Leaders have a vision on where they are going. Tell yourself something positive today. Make yourself happy. Trying loving yourself instead of hating yourself.
i had a vision. i wanted to buy a house and have a baby. "well-meaning" friends have told me to wait because it's all based on emotion. like i said, he could be doing things based on emotions. nobody is stopping him. i don't see why i can't do what i need to do even if it is based on emotion.
i just know i can't sit here and do nothing. i've been asked several times what i want. i want equity. at first, i wasn't sure if i wanted a family. but then i don't see why i should give that up. i'm 37 and no spring chicken. i need to do this now. this is how i plan to move on. i wasted my best years and hard earned money on an a*hole. i don't need people to tell me to wait because the longer i wait, the less likely i will achieve my dreams. maybe this d is a blessing. <-- there is my positive for the day. i'm not going to waste any more time. life is too short. i've never had a casual relationship before. in this day and age, serious relationships don't exist.
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You are the only one who can get yourself out of the mess. You can stay in it and spread it or rise above it. You get to choose your path.
i'm trying to think of a way to escape. i don't even want to go home. maybe go home with somebody else. i just know i don't want to be here.
