I do see a shift in you, though, which may be harder for you to see/feel b/c you're with yourself every day. Maybe it's more of a shift in attitude and more PMA now that I'm seeing, and you haven't felt a concrete "action-oriented" change yet. Whatever it is, it's movement in a positive direction.
Thanks for putting it this way Alice. That's a helpful way for me to look at it. I feel like I'm making progress, but also feeling frustrated because I'm not getting some of the results that I'm looking for (i.e. consistently earning money to the maximum extent of my work availability).
Another reason to earn money is that the autism diagnosis is very unlikely at this point. The professionals are saying that he HAS the skills even though he cannot consistently and appropriately use them. That is great news for his future, but super frustrating that we are not entitled to the funding to get the services that he needs. I feel that starting interventions now (especially occupational therapy) could make a huge difference and I need to find a way of making that possible even if we can't get funding.
me: 42 | STBXH: 41 | T: 18 | M: 10 | separation: Jan 3, 2010 | they deserve better: S7 & D4 current thread: http://tinyurl.com/3y8sxcp .: first breathe, then heal, then start LIVING :.
