IMO you are angry at yourself for not speaking up for your needs and expressing how you really felt. Understand your feelings, identify the source, feel your emotions and know that is how you feel and it's OK. The lack of boundaries in your marriage is a big issue.
yes, i am angry at myself for not speaking up. and now it's too late. there were no boundaries. i don't like having to deal with this mess.
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All that anger needs to come out. Release it, let it fly, deal with it, enjoy feeling instead of stuffing, anger is a sign you aren't done.
i don't understand - a sign that i'm not done? because i haven't said my piece and i'm ready to let it rip during mediation? i wasted my time on an a*hole. and i hate myself for having done that.