i've kept so much bottled up. i'm like a molotov cocktail right now. there is so much more inside that has to come out.
I agree. Get it out in a healthy way - vent, exercise, talk to friends, go to IC, journal, scream in a pillow.
IMO you are angry at yourself for not speaking up for your needs and expressing how you really felt. Understand your feelings, identify the source, feel your emotions and know that is how you feel and it's OK. The lack of boundaries in your marriage is a big issue.
All that anger needs to come out. Release it, let it fly, deal with it, enjoy feeling instead of stuffing, anger is a sign you aren't done.
You can handle it.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
