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I could use a little luck.


Luck is where skill meets opportunity. Make your own luck.


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I am 100% willing to forgive- if she would only ask and be truly sorry.


That's not how forgiveness works, you forgive for yourself. Do your homework here. Putting conditions on things means you have expectations that are unwritten. Use MC to express how you truly feel to your wife. You can handle it.


M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12
Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.