I'm usually VERY logical, but this whole saga did a number on my self-esteem and turned me into a weepy, grasping fool! The last time I got this emotional was when I lost both of my parents within a year of each other back in 87 & 88. WH helped me through it then, but with him causing all the trouble this time, I lost it.
You're a stronger woman than me, newmama! I was in a daze for 6 months after I had my first child. If my WH had been acting then like your husband is now, I'd still be recovering (she's almost 13). Best of luck to you!