Hey Glam - I agree there is nothing wrong with wanting to look great and sexy. I do my best And I enjoy the attention when people compliment me...it sure is a confidence booster after we got kicked to the curb by our WH. And BTW H always notices if I have something new on and often says "you look great", come to think of it he comments on my looks much more now then he ever did before....how weird is that.
Eric - I'm great, thanks for asking...I hope that you are too Something finally clicked with me and I think that I'm back where I was before the last false R, actually further. It took this long...I can't believe how much he pulled me back in with his last flip flop.
I'm feeling pretty detached, hopefully it will last, NO... IT WILL LAST. I've been using the stop sign, does anyone else use it? I'm amazed how well it works for me. Every time I think of him, or the past, or the pain or of OW or anything emotional I raise a stop sigh in my mind...kind of visualize it and the thought is stopped instantly. Works like magic.
Eric I do continue to work on the CD issue, because I still feel like a Siamese twin that got separated from her other half. But I know that I'll be OK and that I can make a happy life for myself. I miss him, but I don't need him.
Acceptance - I think that I'm progressing there as well, today I feel that I have accepted the reality of where we are now. One of the reasons that I feel that I have accepted it is that I'm ready to tell my mom, she still doesn't know anything and I was stalling, protecting her from pain and H from shame, because I was still hoping that he will come to his senses. At this point I'm ready to tell her what's going on.
The pain is still there, for that I use my "Stop Sign" it works those thoughts.
Eric - I feel strong today "Rambo" strong LOL...bring it on
I'm just being silly now.
Actually I have some good news, it's interesting how the universe works. My good friend that has moved to Europe just called me that they have decided to move back. She will come first with her D (my D's best friend) and her H will follow later, when their house sells and when he finds a job here. My friend & her D will stay with us in the meanwhile, it could be months. I'm so excited. My house will be alive again. This girlfriend has so much energy that she will not let me be depressed, life will be buzzing around here. So stoked
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And I enjoy the attention when people compliment me...it sure is a confidence booster after we got kicked to the curb by our WH. And BTW H always notices if I have something new on and often says "you look great", come to think of it he comments on my looks much more now then he ever did before....how weird is that.
