reconciliation after divorce?

[any chance?]

OK, I failed PG totally today. I am obsessed by the fact that W has apparently renewed her EA with OM while I am gone and attempting to drop the rope and go NC. Kind of useless to drop the rope when she does not care in the least.

I see three possibilities here:

1. She dumps me, and ends up with OM
2. She dumps me, realizes the OM is poison (her former boss in ous small organization) and stays in her depression
3. She dumps me, realizes down the road she made a mistake, and trys to reconcile

Note the commonalities. The chances of 3 are about a snowballs chance in hell, so why should I even try? At present, I am contemplating insisting on a D with immmediate financial separation the day I return late next week. I will also ask her to move out of the house that she just returned to when I left. This would be an abrupt change, to be sure. And it would be totally abandoning a deeply depressed woman I have been devoted to for 20 years. That is not the kind of guy I am. I am confused, and must be a moron.

Sorry PG. Really am.