still separated, headed for D?

[newmama]

Gatsby- how long is your maternity leave? The first few months of S' life really were just a blur. If I had to return to work after 3 months, I know it would be hard to leave my baby but at the same time, for me personally, would have made it a lot easier to endure this crappy life! I think I would love to work part time, but there is no such thing as a PART TIME TEACHER- you always end up working full time!

CW- yeah, I like to read others' sitches for hope, too. Today is hard- we are having just rainy day after rainy day for like a month straight so far and it can bring me down! Even though I should be used to it because I live in the Pacific Northwest!

I just returned from dropping off S in the parking lot. I am really tired of having to give him away to his dad all the time. I just stayed in the car today when WH came to take him out of his car seat. He tried to make some chit chat but I was NOT in the mood! Luckily, I didn't feel bad about not sharing stuff
about S because my SIL confirmed that a business-like interaction was sufficient. WH doesn't get to share the bond with me over our child. If he wants that, he needs to be married to me. Now like I said, I will act however I feel like except not cry in front of him (for my pride) and not be too rude. Today I just didn't feel like acting like I was having a blast and doing just fine without him. I was reserved, not depressed.

I am bummed too about the Gores. 40 years-and they were in their 60s- why not stick it out??? Hey how long did they live apart while he was on the road? Was it longer than 15 months? If I can do it after only 5 years, they can do it after 40! (ok none of my business. Just whenever I see another divorce, especially after 40 years, it makes me lose faith that people can be married for life)

Now I do have a question- ok in the movies, they make it look like that magical, amazing soulmate is out there for everyone and we can find someone who will light us up every day for the rest of our lives! I do know better than that- you can feel that way for the first 2 years and then it comes sporadically after that.

But in the movies they also show the woman making the man grovel and beg to come back and persist and do whatever it takes. Is this just a Hollywood ideal? Or does this happen in real life? Do spouses who want to come back after walking away FIGHT for their spouse?