The fact you said "I hate you for this" to me is a good thing.

It's honest.

I'm still not man enough to say it. Instead I show it in small ways, which is passive aggressive and I have to improve for the next love that comes along.

I think I have the answer to Eckhart Tolles' question as to whether I truly loved my wife or was I just addicted to a relationship.

I believe now I can say I truly love my children and I loved being a part of an intact family, but I no longer loved STBXW. She'd shut me out so completely and I resented it and thought of what it would be like to be with someone who truly loved me.

Me: 47, Ds 17-13, D final 6-11
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