(((Aver))), Since I've been so slow to post, I need to let you know that when I read this, I felt better. Then, today after I stopped crying, I read it again and I felt better again.
Yeah, I'm an avoider. It's part of why I'm in this mess. I knew moving would unearth all this pain all over again. But staying there hurt too. I'm adjusting. It's going to take some time.
My C suggested I see her weekly & I agree. I do think I need more help right now. I need to figure out what I really need! And go back to goals and all those things I started on months ago.
I need to put that first, I've gotten lazy. It's just too easy for me to be so busy with work that I let the personal work get pushed to the side. Then when I hit a bump, I'm not handling it well.
One thing this board helps me with is keeping that discipline and focus. I need that.
So far I have not discussed the pups with H. I told him this week would be better for me since my big work stuff would be over.
I don't why he thinks I would turn one of them over to him when he's getting nasty about financial stuff. He got to end the M. -without any C or even a good explanation. He gets the house, with a sweet low payout amt. to me. He's used my little inheritance from my Mom as his own personal ATM to go to Vegas. It's just not enough for him!
At this point I'm not eager to email him back. Not in the right frame of mind now anyway.
Thanks for your thoughts, and advice. I need to check your thread now! ((((Aver)))))
