Completely Blindsided

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"How to Improve Your Marriage Without Talking About It" sounds like a definite to pick up then. I'll have a look online today, because the local stores seem to be very short on relationship books.

It's hard not to make assumptions from what they say to you... because you do what you can not to reply straight away, so dwelling on things is a bit too easy. I'm doing what I can not to overthink.... I'm just not terribly good at it!

I know I'm not bettering myself for her... I know what I'm aiming for are goals that will lead me forwards on a life without her. It's more that if I'd known and taken these steps beforehand, they would have had a big impact. It's odd and bitter sweet.

I'll continue communicating with her whenever I can... but doing what I can not to seem over keen or negative.

I know words haven't worked in the past, but I can't help but feel that there have been no words on these issues before... I don't know. Part of me just wants to apologise for being this weird miserable creature.

But you're right... the only chance is to build the relationship from scratch if I get the chance. I don't think it's coming, but I'm trying to keep positive about myself and my new life.