I'm just scared all the time.

[tristan]

Why couldn't you do more around the house and spend more time parenting when you aren't out looking for jobs?

I thought I was. IDK what to think anymore.

I am still actively hunting for a job. I WANT a job. I hate not having work.

I am trying to be a good parent. And a better one than I am.

Good. I would also suggest not leaving the home. It is tough to be a better parent when you are not there.