John, it's not nitpicking. It's history repeating itself that I am worried about. My job, my problems, were MINE in the past. His problems were ours. His schedule, his jobs, his committements, his trips, his late nights... I want that changed. And yes guys, I am nowhere where I was last year, but I am long ways from where I want to be. If someone told me this is it, this is the best it ca be, I would say "no thanks". I am missing "the belonging"... I hope it comes back.
As Sara/Lotus told me privately once, detachement can be a bad advice when it comes to second chance (paraphrased with my Greeklish). I am living that now. Exactly because it was a good weekend, and there was still something missing, with a perfect setting, realxed, away from reminders and hectic schedules, I was hoping I would feel something more...solid?
