Did a little bit of snooping last night when W was asleep. Looked at cell phone calls and messages. Several txt to and from OM. Again, nothing incriminating. School business she would say. Also, several to and from one of her sisters. Sister heard that so and so was getting D, H said he didn't love W anymore-the end. Didn't realize how common it was. W said, yeah, I guess it is pretty common. Failed to mention that other couple didn't have kids, both are financially well off and husband had multiple affairs.
Then, sister asks about MC. Says good luck. W mentions that when I come home, I play with the kids or cut grass or stay busy, I don't talk to her much. No $h!t! I refuse to be rejected and ignored, that's all. I am as friendly as I can be.
Maybe I am making more progress than I realize. Trying not to get my hopes up. The fact that she is still in contact with super helps keep me focused.
Just have to wait and see. First MC session should be interesting. I have never been and don't know what to expect. If anyone has any insight, I would appreciate it. How will I or the counselor be able to tell if she is there to save the M or save face? Will it be obvious? Or should I just go and let things happen?
I remain hopeful. I can't help it.
I don't love the person my W is right now and am really okay if she decides to go. I am ready to move on, one way or the other.
